I’ll be honest:
I still don’t really know what Project Fishtank is supposed to be.
I don’t have a perfect blueprint or a clean content schedule or some locked-in message I’m following.
I’m figuring it out as I go.
And for the longest time, that made me feel like I was already behind.
Like not knowing meant I wasn’t ready or I wasn’t serious enough.
But that wasn’t the real problem.
This whole year, the person I was really up against… was me.
I went through multiple resets this year, each one leaving me with this foggy air around me.
I knew I had ideas.
I knew I wanted to build something cool.
But I kept feeling like I was waking up mid-level with no memory of the controls — trying to relearn who I was and how I operated.
I kept messing up in the same ways:
Making everything too complicated.
Thinking in circles.
Worrying about what other people would get out of what I posted.
Having real experiences but being completely unable to document them.
My identity was in the blender, and the thoughts were loud enough to drown out any momentum.
The breakthrough didn’t come from journaling, planning, or building new systems.
It came from doing nothing.
Literally nothing.
And for once, not judging myself for it.
Then I had a conversation that snapped something into place.
I said, “I don’t have time,” the same way I’ve said it for years — and they held up a mirror.
They pointed out how much time I actually had, how much of it I was giving away, and how much of my “I don’t have time” was just a story I’d been repeating.
For some reason, that finally clicked.
I wasn’t out of time.
I was out of alignment.
So I stopped fighting myself.
I chilled.
I cut the pressure.
And I started doing small things again — the things that make you feel human:
Cleaning my room.
Resetting my space.
Taking walks.
Finishing video games. Starting TV shows I’d been wanting to watch. Same with movies. Even trying some random wild stuff I’ve wanted to do for years but kept telling myself, “I’ll be able to do it when…” — which is my favorite lie I’ve been telling myself.
Having focused thinking sessions.
Writing for a few minutes without trying to “make content.”
Actually enjoying life again — the simple parts I’d ignored in the chase of some perfect future.
Once I dropped the perfect version of my vision — the one that never matched reality anyway — I finally had space to see what actually mattered.
Not the whole map.
Just the next lever I could pull.
The next small rep that moved me forward.
How drastically do you think your life could change if you just kept moving — just honest progress?
This week, I was focused.
Not in a grindset way.
Just in a “I know what matters today” way.
And I want more of that — slowly building the thing I always said I wanted, without the pressure to be the final form yet.
I’m not here to shame myself for the past or pretend I had it all figured out.
I’m here because I want to build something for me, using the skills I picked up along the way.
Something cool.
Something honest.
Something I can grow into instead of chase.
Project Fishtank isn’t a system.
It’s not a brand strategy.
It’s me learning how to show up — consistently, imperfectly, and in real time — while I figure out how to turn the life I want into the life I’m actually living.
And if you’re reading this from a few steps behind me, maybe this helps:
You don’t need to be ready.
You just need to start showing up for yourself again.
For the first time in a long time, that feels like enough.
Take care,
-Fish
